Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I tried, I honestly did..

Mood : ignored

I want to be happy again..
right now I'm just wearing a mask, a happy mask..
I smile and laugh when it seems to be needed..
I crack jokes and make other people smile..
when in truth, I just want to cry..
yes, I've been secretly crying these past few days, but don't tell my mum..
nah, she'll read this anyway, so who cares?

my heart isn't happy..
I feel lost, and think about weird things at times..
heh, ironic how negativity found a new friend this new year..
I want my positivity back..
I want to smile, and laugh, and MEAN IT..
I don't like to be plastic anymore..
I want to be happy..
I want to be happy, just like you..
you're happy now, aren't you?
yeah, I bet you are..

once upon a time, I was happy..
but will my happiness return tomorrow?..
or the next day?..
or the day after that?..
will I mean my every smile after this?..
we'll never know..
so much for a bright 2010 huh?..
sumpah, ironi gila!

p/s :- I tried, I honestly did.. whatever it is, whatever I did to push you away, I'm honestly sorry, from the bottom of my broken heart.. and I never told anyone about our conversation.. it's still our secret.. now it's up to you for the next step..

p/s/s :- I have always hated goodbyes.. you know that, right?..


k.A said...

hey,apa jd? be strong ya? God,bring my miss positive back!

Judiene said...

hey girl, what's wrong?
it's like u're having an issue with urself
just buzz me if u need someone to talk to k

fitriah said...

love matters, darling?

feshnie said...

whazzup with the emo start of the year?

HIZAMI said...

h0pe u g0nna be fine.

ichiban | いちばん said...

susah betoi den nak khobar kn... x tau lah camno nak buek dah.. hahahha.. btw... all the best la.. huhuhu

StrewberiManis =) said...

what happen??

*rindukan kecerian kamu yg dulu =(*

arque said...

adeh.sakit gak ni.
be strong ok. ;P

Eazy Izzuddin said...

be happy always kay....
happy 2010

sHaH said...

u forgot about me meh?

gud la..

i'm here for u..
ko je yg takmo share..

☺[ai][sUmi]☺Chan said...

puas mencari nk klik komen.. kat bwh nih upenye.. ^_^ hepi 2010 dear.. hepi sokmo eyh

syaf said...

dear, need 2 be strong ok...
always think positfi2..i understand wth ur situation now, chill dear k

GreenKhadijah said...

I thought love from your family is already enough until you are ready for that special someone in the future...what are you thinking...this is worldly matters...

love you sis...:)

Just_najmiE said...


thanks.. I feel stronger now.. n I even I want my positivity back!.. (^^,)

Just_najmiE said...


noted.. thank you.. =)

Just_najmiE said...


I'm not romantically involved with anyone..

Just_najmiE said...


it's a long story..

Just_najmiE said...


as am I.. thanks.. =)

Just_najmiE said...

ichiban | いちばん..

it's complicated.. thanks anyway..

Just_najmiE said...

StrewberiManis =)..

it's a long story.. heh..

Just_najmiE said...


thanks, I'll try..

Just_najmiE said...

Eazy Izzuddin..

I'll do my very best to.. thanks.. happy 2010 to u too..

Just_najmiE said...


I didn't forget about u, but I chose to not share.. I'm sorry.. some things can't be shared.. hope u understand.. ice blended eh nnt?.. hehe.. =P

Just_najmiE said...


hehe.. thanks sis.. i'll try to be happy.. u be happy too okeh! =)

Just_najmiE said...


thanks dear.. so nice of u to drop by.. i'll be strong.. thanks again.. (^^,)

Just_najmiE said...


it's not romantically related la.. hehe.. but yeah.. guess i'm just lonely.. muahaha~~ tak ah.. =P

love u too! (^^,)


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